My first concert in almost 8 months was yesterday… and I loved it. Because I love to perform, because it felt like a come back, after so many months of absence (absence = self-employed woman on maternity leave), because my family was there, because I had a supportive technical crew, because the audience was so warm and smiley.
There were not so much audience, which doesn’t bother me at all because: 1- I can make eye contact when I’m speaking in-between pieces, thus giving me the feeling that I’m actually having a chat and not in a stage trying to deliver a spotless performance. 2- The concert fee was fixed. So, regardless the number of people coming I’d earn always the same. When the deal is a box office share you can’t avoid, as a musician, to take a glance on the number of heads in the room and do a little math on how much will you earn, and all this while you perform! Yep, not absolutely musical thoughts, but it happens, and I bet I’m not alone.
For some reasons there were also stressful moments. This was because: what happens when there’s barely no budget and you still need to transport a PA system from A to B in The Netherlands? Exactly, you bike, at all costs, you bike. Even if we are talking about 2 monstrous speakers, mixing board and mic stands. Fortunately I had sound technician Jannes Oosterwijk close by. Cirque du Soleil’s director: if you are looking for talented acrobats do come to this country! 2- There was no way to get the concert program’s first piece software running. The piece is called “4 Variazioni sul Ritmo del Vento” by italian composer Agostino Di Scipio and the live electronics run on PD. PD gave no problems on my old computer but now that I upgraded to Mac Book Pro and to Ableton Live 9 it simply started being totally unreliable. Me and programmer Edwin Rietmeijer (the guy that makes my electronica dreams possible) spent our precious sound-check time basically trying to fix PD until five minutes! before the performance I decided to cancel the piece. Although it’s one of my favourite Recorder pieces, I’ve decided to remove it from my performances. I can’t afford to work with a software that doesn’t work. Sounds fair, right?
Anyway, five minutes before the concert everything was decided and ready and honestly I enjoyed that five minute wait. And the stress went away as soon as I started the performance.
So, thank you CBK, Mevrouw Huisken, CBK volunteers, Conservatorium van Amsterdam, technicians and everyone that showed up, because you made this concert possible. And that’s the last “because” for today. Tot volgende keer!